[Poem] Confusion

Ok, this is basically my frst attempt at poetry. I wrote it because of how I been feeling a lot at the time. I won't go into detail here, or at all really. Hopefully, this poem will help you understand. What I will say, though, is that I wrote this poem because of a girl.

Like I said, it's my first attempt at poetry, so please go easy on it

Thrown up, down, left, right,
Like a roller coaster without a harness.
Standing here in the light,
But all I see is darkness.

Time has been good to me,
Though intent on doing harm.
Adrift in the turbulent sea of tranquillity,
A storm before the calm.

As I wander aimlessly,
In search of no despair.
Don’t know where I need to be,
Wondering if I’m even there.

I take long looks at my life,
Wondering if it’s just an illusion.
I feel just like a leaf,
Caught in the gentle breeze in the maelstrom of confusion.