by Chojin Wed Mar 30, 2011 8:15 am
Rather a calm rant...
Last Monday, I had arranged to meet up with my girlfriend, we were both getting excited about it. Unfortunately, the Friday before, she had a fall and hurt her ankle. Stupidly, she went to work on it on the Sunday and couldn't walk on it, so she cancelled on me. Monday morning, I asked how she was, how her ankle was, etc. and she went quiet on me. That was the last thing I heard from her. She didn't even say anything when I broke up with her Thursday night.
As it turns out, she was messing me around all along; which doesn't say much for me because the last five girls I've been out with, or after, have been complete head fucks. I don't know if I can trust women, now, and I certainly can't trust my own judgement.
I was a complete wreck both Thursday night and Friday morning, but had to pull it together. I've been holding it together all weekend because mum and Sophie were home, when all I wanted to do was break down in tears. They didn't go away again yesterday, and everything just got on top of me. I lost my appetite, as well as control, and hardly ate anything.
This morning, I had slipped, anyway, so I was feeling down. After I got to Cambridge, and into the Job Centre, it p*ssed it down. It didn't stop until I was back at the bus station, so I was f*cking soaked, and cold because I didn't put on as many layers because it was a nice day. I saw the bus I'd need to go see my gf twice in the space of a minute and that made me angry because I wanted to go give her a piece of my mind. I got on the wrong bus back because the number on it was wrong, so it would take twice as long to get me home. It started down towards somewhere that would've cut out half it's route, then stopped and just sat there for 10 minutes. I had mum phone me not once, not twice but four times and had a go at me because she left her key at home and was locked out. I had the whole bus looking at me because I was try to make myself heard over her. I had a splitting headache, I was freezing, I was hungry, I was gasping for cuppa and a fag, and I was surrounded by a bunch of college students that weren't exactly quiet. I left the Job Centre at about 4 and didn't get home until after 6.
If that wasn't bad enough, they (mum and Sophie) were meant to go back to Cambride today for 8, but first of all Sophie did a runner while she was out playing with some friends (friends I've moaned about before because they should've been put on ASBOs the moment they were born) then she started complaining that she was ill. Obviously faking, but refusing to move. They're not going back until tomorrow, either >_<
Oh, and we have my sister's cat again. Not only have I had to put up with it sh*tting everywhere, but that cat also get's my cat hyper and she ends up knocking things over. My cat jumped up on top of my sister's TV and knocked the DVD player down. While I was putting it back and plugging it back in, my cat jumps on top of the wardrobe and knocks more stuff down. I go to get her down and the DVD players falls down again.
I tell you, I've so had enough of today. I've not been able to do much of anything and this whole 6 weeks alone thing is not going according to plan. I'm so far behind schedule that I may as well give up, because there's no hope of me getting done the things I had planned.
EDIT: Turns out my sister wasn't faking, so I take that back